I&#039;m really happy to see some of this spark back up, admittedly I began to feel like it was dying off.<br /><br />Anywho, I suppose I&#039;ll say a few things here:<br /><br />When I began the Yo Yo thread, I had been inspired after watching some old guys play a few matches. It reminded me of the old days. It reminded me that at one time, you could load up ZDaemon and never have a problem finding a game in a mode you prefer. <br /><br />Bringing up the IDL and ZDDL gaining more support, and let&#039;s face it: assistance, from the staff was something I felt could be beneficial for the port and both leagues in the long run. Unfortunately, JKist3 has been gone for awhile and rumors continue to swirl whether he&#039;ll be back or not (I&#039;ll believe it when I see it). So it looks as the though the ZDDL may not be running this season (unless Dev or a few others manage to piece something together in a short amount of time - either way, they have their work cut out for them). I was happy to see most people felt the same way I did with a vision of the IDL going &quot;public.&quot; <br /><br />As time went on, more and more well-thought out posts with great ideas of expansion had come to life. After a week or two, the original thread began to die out and I became frustrated. I lashed out in hopes of sparking up debate again instead of being calm, cool and collective and allowing people to post when they were ready. Although I certainly will admit that I was way out of line for saying things how I said them, I&#039;m not sure I question the context of what I actually said, even to this day. I felt like we got no communication from the staff whatsoever, including Kilgore (who was on vacation at the time, which was something I wasn&#039;t aware of and have since apologized since he took time out of his vacation to respond to this - I probably would have been pissed, too). The fact is, however, Kilgore is not the only admin and there was nothing being brought to the table by them until someone lashed out. I don&#039;t condone it, but sometimes it takes a bit of a push to knock a boulder off a cliff, so if I had to be the &quot;asshole&quot; to do it, I&#039;d be more than willing to for the sake of discussion. So although I regret how I did it, I still wonder if these discussions and touchy subjects would have ever maintained their activity this long if I hadn&#039;t. <br /><br />That being said, I&#039;m not trying to make myself out as some hero for doing this. Despite what I&#039;ve said, in retrospect I probably would have waited a bit and tried to speak to one of the admins in private to point them to the thread to get their input. I was merely responding to what Chain said so he, as well as anyone else who questioned it, would have a better understanding of why I did it. <br /><br />I also agree with mike on a few things. Both sides could do a much better job of how we&#039;ve been representing ourselves. However, in a sense I&#039;m almost happy things have gone from sour to sweet and vice versa at times because being diplomatic and polite can sometimes cause things to get swept under the rug rather than dealt with at that time. Nonetheless, dosing the ZDaemon forums wasn&#039;t a very bright idea (even though it was kinda&#039; funny). It&#039;s one thing to be an irrational douche bag in the heat of a tense discussion but it&#039;s completely different to cross those lines. It was unrelated and had no way of benefiting the discussion. <br /><br />After I took a step back from the whole discussion to cool off and become a bit more collective, I did message Kilgore and apologize for how I said things but not what I said. In the end, we pretty much agreed to disagree on a few things and that&#039;s fine. I still think having the IDL [b]with[/b] Ralphis going public is a possibility. It will take some time and magic to be worked but I believe in the long run things will work themselves out for better or worse. Regardless, the IDL will run and ZDaemon will run, my hopes are and have always been to see them come together at some point. So yeah, that&#039;s pretty much all I have to say. More than anything, I simply wanted to clarify a few things and put in my two cents, so I did! <br /><br />P.S. mikehail is a sperm whale. 