ZDaemon&#039;s administration is just so pathetic; I don&#039;t know why I put up with it for so long.&nbsp; Kilgore was evidently extremely offended by [url=http://forums.zdaemon.org/viewtopic.php?p=242832&amp;sid=c05e355da80b8d923b12e080a347670a#242832]this post[/url], and he replied and locked the thread an entire day and a half later, when phenex2 and I are in the middle of a discussion about contributing to ZDaemon.&nbsp; Later, I update the e-mail address on my forum account which requires that an admin re-activate the account.&nbsp; I probably highlighted the admins over a dozen times over the next 10 weeks trying to get someone to re-activate me, but I was just ignored.&nbsp; Nostar finally caught up with Kilgore and Kilgore said that he &quot;wanted to ban that guy from the forums, but if he&#039;s stupid enough to disable his forum account himself then I&#039;ll just let the problem solve itself&quot;, or something like that - he definitely called me stupid.<br /><br />I finally get him to respond to me on IRC.&nbsp; After he refuses to re-enable my forum account, refuses to tell me why he&#039;s upset with me, tries to convince me that I did something I didn&#039;t do (try to pass off that post as drunk posting), threatens me several times with a master ban, and accuses me of having an &quot;ulterior motive&quot;, he finally tells me that I&#039;m on thin ice and just re-activates it.&nbsp; I don&#039;t really want to get into the whole conversation, because it was obscure, paranoid, and so full of hypocrisy that it just confused me most of the time.&nbsp; For instance, compare his being deeply offended by a post that doesn&#039;t even name or insult him to him ignoring, insulting, and threatening me.&nbsp; Anyway, he told me that I was on thin ice, and he laments a little about how he doesn&#039;t want people to kiss his ass all the time, but he just expects &quot;normal behavior&quot;.&nbsp; As vindicated as his deletion of my &quot;TT is closing&quot; thread made me feel, I&#039;m sure my posting that thread confirmed his suspicions that I had &quot;ulterior motives&quot; all along; that I only wanted the death and destruction of ZDaemon, and was willing to write 1000s of lines of ZDaemon server management code and spend hundreds of dollars paying for ZDaemon servers to do it.&nbsp; Hurrr.<br /><br />Later, he locks Hatred&#039;s Yo Yo thread with another sad post full of paranoia.&nbsp; His story about what happened between the ZDaemon team and Ralphis regarding GetWAD is basically a lie from start to finish.&nbsp; His accusations about Ralphis&#039; &quot;PR Campaigns&quot; are completely made up and laughable.&nbsp; His information about Odamex is pathetically incorrect, which could be remedied in 5 minutes using this thing called GOOGLE.&nbsp; He reduces IDL - which is the greatest achievement in competitive Doom EVER - to a stupid way we can &quot;stick it to zdaemon&quot;.&nbsp; Referring to me creating an IRC bot to advertise league games, he groups me in with &quot;random people&quot;, even after all the time &amp; money I&#039;ve dedicated to ZDaemon.<br /><br />On the other hand, he says nothing about advertising ZDDL (which is fully public and &quot;legit&quot;), nothing about over-moderation and censorship, nothing about what the new website will include, nothing about how community members can get involved and contribute, or any ideas/efforts to expand ZDaemon&#039;s player base, but he does take time to insult Kitty... for no reason whatsoever.&nbsp; He just rage-posted and rage-locked the thread.&nbsp; How thoughtful, how mature - that&#039;s &quot;normal behavior&quot; if I&#039;ve ever seen it.<br /><br />And let me be perfectly clear.&nbsp; IDL is &quot;underground&quot; because we want to choose our players and ZDaemon won&#039;t afford us that luxury.&nbsp; As soon as one of our players calls Kilgore a faggot (and let&#039;s face it, the odds of that happening are very, very high) an entire season is ruined because Kilgore is, in fact, a huge faggot and will ban that guy.&nbsp; IDL&#039;s forums and IRC channel are separate from ZDaemon&#039;s because we can&#039;t fucking stand the administration breathing down our necks, threatening to master ban us arbitrarily without even explaining why they&#039;re upset with us.&nbsp; For the LAST TWO YEARS we have been lobbying for ZDaemon to grant IDL servers amnesty so we can advertise them on the master.&nbsp; This wasn&#039;t a &quot;PR campaign&quot; to get Ralphis unbanned, this was us asking the ZD administration to let us choose who plays in IDL (over the last 2 years, other banned players have played in IDL, which Kilgore is clearly completely ignorant of).&nbsp; We clearly don&#039;t give a shit about what other games our players play (advertised ZDaemon games, Skulltag games, isketch) as long as they show up for games, we never sit around and think about how we can &quot;stick it to zdaemon&quot;.&nbsp; To even insinuate that is unbelievably self-centered, paranoid, and maybe even delusional.&nbsp; It&#039;s incredible to the point that I barely believe it - Kilgore knows ABSOLUTELY NOTHING about IDL, but he feels qualified to pontificate as to its real &quot;agenda&quot;, which is to make certain that no one on earth ever plays another game of Public ZDaemon CTF EVER AGAIN MWAHAHAHAHAHA.&nbsp; Yeah, that&#039;s why TotalTrash ran more CTF servers than any other server set for years.&nbsp; Fucking idiotic beyond belief.<br /><br />And look, I&#039;m not trying to be petty here.&nbsp; I don&#039;t give a shit if Kilgore wakes up calling me a cocksucker and goes to sleep calling me a faggot.&nbsp; But after having spent so much time and effort on supporting ZDaemon with TotalTrash and IDL, and for Kilgore to ignore me, insult me, threaten me, and then refer to me as a &quot;random person&quot; after all I&#039;ve done for the game was a little much, and when you throw his full-on contempt for all the goodwill expressed in the original Yo Yo thread, his blatant lies about Ralphis &amp; the GetWAD situation, and his thick, gooey bullshit explosion regarding IDL... well, it convinced me that I shouldn&#039;t be a part of the ZDaemon scene anymore.&nbsp; The hypocrisy is absurd, and the abuse is intolerable, so I said good bye.&nbsp; And, true to form, Kilgore deleted the thread in which I said good bye - which I very smartly posted here on our forums also, so everyone can see how polite and reasonable it was.&nbsp; He just deleted it because I was on &quot;thin ice&quot;, even though it violated no TOS or forum rules, insulted no one, and was very simply the truth.&nbsp; Good work Hippocrates, good work.<br /><br />P.S. For those who don&#039;t know, Kilgore&#039;s name is Hippocrates Sendoukas, and you can see his website [url=http://hs.keystone.gr/]here[/url].&nbsp; This isn&#039;t really a secret, as hs.keystone.gr is linked lots of places in the ZDaemon forums.&nbsp; I find his name quite befits his personality, and thought I&#039;d share.